Living with uncertainties

Hey guys, its been a real long time since i've posted. well now, i got some bottled up feelings i wanna let out..

For years now, i've been keeping this issue down low. My parents are way too overprotective. Whenever i wanna go out, they'll remind me about how bad the world is these days.

And sometimes, they just say ''no'' when i ask. Then i'll ask '' why?''. they'll just ignore me and pretend i'm not there.. Hello?!?!?!!?! childish much. i'm asking them for a reason why can't i go out, and they say '' no means no ''. I'm like if you wanna say no, at least give me a reason.. Its not like i go out really often. You could ask my friends, i barely go out.

Situation A:

Before PMR, i only went out twice!!!! Yea twice!!! I've been studying my ass off for my parents satisfaction. Group studying, going to the library etc... OK, finally when PMR is over. Its great they let me out. But wait, Only twice again!! Since i've finished PMR, i've only gone out twice with my friends.. So i ask them about camps, and trips. Guess what they say to me.. They said that i was being selfish, that i only think about myself. They also asked me to do gardening, clean the house, isn't that a freaking maids job?!?! And my parents also say that i don't spend time with them. HELLO!!!!!!!!!! They are the ones so busy all the time. I've always suggested a family vacation. Just us family, and they said '' Stay at home! you think we got so much money? isn't our house already a resort?'' It doesn't make sense!

Pisses me off!!

I have only one quote to say about this situation

" The more you hold on to me, the further i'll drift away from you in the future"

And right now, i couldn't agree more.. When i turn 18, i'm going to Australia to further my studies.. And i'll finally get my freedom!!! And judging from the way they're treating me these days, i don't think i'll be coming back!!!So you can say sayonara to your daughter already!!! I can almost hear the Heaven's music playing when i think about me leaving Malaysia.



Situation 2 : I just can't talk to them anymore

Last time, i use to tell my mom everything! i mean everything. From boys i like, guys that are hot, bitches that pisses me off and everything else. She was kinda like my best friend. I was so blessed to have her being so understanding. She will also keep secrets if i asked her to.

But now, I don't even have time to talk to her. She's always in Meetings, and appointments. And in the car, i try to take the opportunity to talk to her, but now, she's always on the phone in the car. So nowadays, i haven't really got the chance to actually '' talk' to her. And express my feelings and all.. Its difficult, to suddenly lose a best friend like that. It hurts

Now, i'm just having one-word convo's with my parents. The only person i have left to talk to at home is my brother.

but you wanna know something about him, he get's distracted sooooooo easily.. When i was talking to him, he saw an ant, and he was like '' che che see! an ant'' i was like '' Hello?!?! trying to talk here!'' then he's like '' but the ant is so cool!!!'' So i was left speechless...





I just wanna be a typical teenager... These are what teenagers do :

a) Just be themselves, discover who they are, and what they're gonna do in life
b) Hang out with friends, watch a movie, go to the arcade, have fun
c) Its also normal to get attracted to the opposite sex.( hello?!?! duh?!?! puberty already stroke!)
d) Get boyfriends/girlfriends ( parents have to understand, that when it comes, it comes, there's no way anyone could escape this), parents just forbids cause it'll affect studies and all, what if it actually helps? and if parents just fight with nature and tear a couple apart, wouldn't this affect their studies even more? They know this day will come sooner or later, its just when
e) Go to parties( not wild ones) but normal parties, let loose for awhile

Now, i'm not doing any!
figures.
What a great life huh?!?!?!(sarcastic)

haih...

-eunice-
(Living with uncertainties)